wish I could scream it at them, but no one will listen to me. Instead,
they choose to ignore me by making me into something I’m not. I try to
make them happy, but no matter how hard I try it’s not good enough. I
make good grades. Hell, I was top of my class senior year, but things
happen. We make sacrifices for people important to us. My parents
wouldn’t understand that. Instead, they say I could be better. I’m the
good girl to everyone else, but to my parents I fall short. To most I
have curves, to them I’m fat. I just want them to be happy with my
imperfections. You know what? I’m tired of giving and getting nothing in
return. Screw them.
The only one that I want to see me for who I really am…is him.
EVANS has always been the good girl, forced to befriend people she
cares nothing about. She tries hard to be what them and everyone else
expects her to be, but what’s the point when it’s never enough to gain
their approval? She’s over lying to make others happy or
self-sacrificing to spare their feelings. For once, she just wants to be
herself. She wants to feel human, tired of being a puppet.
tragedy strikes her in the worst way, she finds herself bargaining in
distress, trying to find reason and rationality in what’s set before
her, but will he give in when in most cases the good girl never gets the
Ink, sex, lies, loyalty.
are the things that define me, and my life. I do me. Nothing else
matters. I don’t need anyone’s approval, nor do I seek it. I’m
comfortable with the man I am. The only thing that haunts my dreams are
those sapphire eyes that remind me of midnight.
I will shut it down every single time. I can’t have her. She deserves
more than what I’m after. The problem is that sometimes life is a bitch.
That curveball was nowhere in sight, but now that it’s been thrown…my
life may never be the same.
SHAWN BRADEN has always been the bad
boy. He’s always had the love and support of his parents no matter what
he does. He knows he can have any girl he wants. Too bad he never wants
them more than once. What he truly wants is the one thing he’s never
admitting to, not even to himself. What happens when he starts seeing
past the facade she’s put on for years and shows him the real girl that
is hiding inside? Will he fall against his will, or will she become
nothing more than every girl before?
“Why the fuck was that prick bringing you home?”
with Jared, you’d think Shawn would know the answer to that question. He
probably does. He just wants me to verbalize it. I’m not going to.
toss the tequila back, but this time my eyes widen. Ok, maybe my buzz
wasn’t so much gone like I originally thought.
More importantly why does he even care? From what I saw earlier tonight,
or last night really, Shawn and Mason left with the brunette trash from
Level. I don’t have to guess what they left to go do and I certainly
don’t want to imagine it.
straight. You, drunk, got onto the back of Cole’s bike? Are you fucking
crazy, Tara?” He doesn’t wait for a reply. “Or do you have a death
smacks the side of the refrigerator before turning. Moments later, I
hear the door to the half bathroom down the hall slam closed.
to pay for this when I wake up and it’s going to be so much worse than
yesterday morning’s hangover. Screw it. If I’m going to do it in the
first place, might as well do it right.
know, it’s only a matter of time before Holly has him back in her
grasps. You don’t stand a chance with Shawn; you never have.” Cassie’s
catty bitch-ass voice assaults my ears. Sometimes she’s worse than
Amanda. I put up with Mandy’s shit because she is dating my best friend,
but it’ll be a cold day in hell before I deal with this bitch’s crap.
Without giving it a bit of thought, I turn and leap forward. She needs a
good butt kicking. I’m not a fighter. I know I can take her if I tried,
but I don’t actively seek out confrontations. My mother would flip her
lid, so I do what’s necessary to avoid that at all cost.
pulling me backwards and against his hard chest. “Get. Out. Of. My.
House.” Shawn bites each word out through clenched teeth. I know they
aren’t directed at me. Even if I weren’t looking at her shocked
expression, I’d know they are aimed at Cassie Winston.
for Holly, the queen bitch herself, but I had to. Sue me if you don’t
like it. I don’t usually act like this, but I’ve had a fair share of
anyone else that lives here. Last time I checked, you don’t live here…
so leave.” His words are still a bark. Shawn can come off quite scary at
times. Frankly, Cassie looks like she is about to pee her pants.
Inside, I’m loving it. This is so much better than me punching her. “Or I
could let Tara go, but I don’t think you want me to. Trust me, she will
will or not. I’ve never hit another person in my life. I’m bigger than
Cassie, sure, in every way, but I’m not going there.
wears around me. She should have been my mother’s kid. I’m certain her
and my mother would get along much better than my mother and I do. “Yes,
have issues with my weight. I’m not over weight, I don’t think, but I’m
not thin or skinny by any means, and it doesn’t matter how much I work
out, I’m never going to be a small size. I love to cook and I love to
eat the food I cook. It’s just not in the cards for me. Doesn’t mean I
like it, but she doesn’t have a right to throw it in my face, especially
with Shawn standing here.
forward, but Shawn’s hold on me tightens. “Leave. Now.” Another bark,
only this time his voice is deeper. It’s a warning.
backwards the warm flannel shirt I’m wearing, Jared’s shirt, is pulled
off my body. I turn, facing Shawn. What the heck is that about?
to order me around. I might take that crap from my parents, but I won’t
from anyone else. “Excuse me?”
time. He springs forward in an instant, making me step backwards until
my back collides with the wall. He continues to close in, placing his
palms on the flat surface of the wall next to my face and leans in. “You
smell like him and I don’t fucking like it.
back. I don’t waste my time either. I take both of my hands, placing my
palms on his chest and pushing as hard as I can. It might not have come
across as a shove, because his body didn’t move away from mine as much
as I intended it to. “Piss off, Shawn.” With those last words I leave
the kitchen, taking myself up the stairs to my bedroom for a shower… and
not because Shawn ordered me to, but because I do in fact stink.
analyze what just happened between us, but I don’t. I’m going to
struggle enough just getting out of my clothes to shower tonight, or
this morning, or whatever the hell time of the day this is.
MEET N.E. HENDERSON
I’m an introvert. It takes me a minute to warm up to people, but once I
do, you’ll probably never get me to shut up.
despise cold and raining weather. I have a love/hate relationship with
my Bull Terrier, Xena. The little winch thinks my husband belongs to her
when he most certainly does not; he belongs to me.
problem when I have fictional people taking up room inside my brain and
screaming to get out. They don’t understand why I can’t give them my
trails. I’m a city girl, married to a country boy, who likes to get a
little dirty and sometimes muddy. Even though I don’t do it often, I
love roller coasters. The steel coasters that is. I hate the wooden